while in bed, i msged peixiong & asked him wad bus i can take to bukit batok from bukit panjang... he replied... aft a long while, he suddenly msged me again and told me a very disappointing thing... tt's he felt we should stop contacting each other for a period of time except for usher stuff... i saw the msg, & i was like totally shocked cos i didn't expect him to msg me such a thing at such a late hr... moreover, wad makes him suddenly tell me this? i merely asked him wad bus i can take, does it mean anything?? y must he msg me tt he feels we should stop contacting each other??? is there anything wrong??? so i replied him & asked him y he suddenly told me this... he said he feels tt i don't understand wad he told me e other day, & tt i'm being emotional... i then told him tt i got wad he talked abt e other day & i asked him wad makes him think i do not? tt i'm not emotional, wad makes him think i am? also told him not to say things tt r not true... and i sent him another msg: asking him not to say such things in future cos it's not very nice as it's rather hurting... he replied me saying tt it's better to say it out although it's hurting, rather than keeping it unsaid cos he feels it's kinda unwise... wth!!!! so i just simply replied him tt i already mentioned earlier tt i knew wad he told me e other day; & i asked him if he meant we're gonna cut off contact completely, at e same time also ask him not to say such words to me... but this time he didn't reply... so i sent him another msg, telling him we need to haf a good talk...
i mean... c'mon lar... all girls are emotional right? same goes for me wad... even some guys are emotional too... so being emotional is not an excuse!!! i dunno y he gifs me tt... furthermore, e 2 reasons he gave me, i can tell he's just trying to run away, but i dunno if he's really avoiding me... so hopefully i get an explanation from him... i noe he won't let me down... i noe i've not trusted e wrong person & i noe tt i've not 'chosen' e wrong person... tho' now it's still too early to decide if he's e one God has placed in my life, however, i still believe in my choice... tt's y i lift this up to God... he's e one tt'll solve all my probs, b it big or small... wadeva may happen in future, i'm not sure of it, but i lift this whole situation into God's hands cos i noe tt God'll put someone into my life soon enough... i dunno if it's peixiong or other ppl tt God'll place in my life, but i just wanna trust in e Lord! same goes for peixiong, he ever told me tt he'll wait for e one tt God will place in his life... anyway, i've decided, i'm gonna concentrate on my studies & God's word 1st, relationship comes 2nd priority...
guess tt's all le bah... meanwhile, do hope tt things will b settled very soon, so tt we're able to contact each other like before... i don't want things to come to this point... but i believe God's able to solve this problem, cos i've told God abt it... yup, tt's all le lo... hopefully peixiong will noe wad he's talking abt... how long does it mean when he said tt we should stop contacting each other for a period of time??? one last thing i wanna tell him is tt i understand wad he talked abt e other time... yepz... so i hope he can come back like before... haiz, really feel so tired abt this issue... y must he msg me this?? anyway, God shall handle it! gtg le... try to get some sleep...
His princess... out
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