got up at 8.15am e next morning... yeah, was slightly later than e time my members were supposed to reach... but i didn't miss e whole prayer meeting... thank God! svc was great! God's presence was in e place... aft svc, went for e bbq... had a great time of interaction & games... reached home at 9 plus... was very tired, but i had fun e whole time... went to freshen up & started writing some stuff... aft tt, washed up & went to sleep early...
e wk was rather boring... didn't haf anything on during mon & tues... on wed afternoon, went wif my mum, aunt & uncle to hotel phoenix for lunch... food was great! hee... aft tt, went wif my mum to cpf building at je, then went to jp to buy a puzzle frame... got changed when i reached home & set off to church for bs... was on duty... bs was great! Pst Kong preached a word on antinomianism(did i type correctly?) reached home at 12am... went to sleep aft tt...
met peixiong on thurs evening at jp for dinner... at e same time, passed him some stuffs: a letter & e precious moments jigsaw... talked for a while, then went to walk ard... aft tt, we went to e pasar malam cos didn't really haf anything on... reached home at 9.45pm... at night, conferenced call wif jayne & peixiong... talked till 4 plus, which is by far e latest time we conferenced till... ha...
as for today, went out wif my mum to clementi for br-unch... took a bus back to boon lay... i went to buy sth, whereas my mum went home... aft tt, watched some tv till 3 plus then came online... tonight gotta sleep early... need to wake up early tmr for duty...
e whole wk was okay... but there's one major improvement, which is, things between him & i improved... as in, we began to talk much more... & we managed to clarify matters, at least most of it... plus e letter i passed to him cleared things up further... thursday was by far e most relaxed day among all those days tt i went out wif him... now, gotta see what his reply will be... yepz...
sch's gonna re-open... checked my new time-table... really tiring... & it's even more tiring than my previous one... stress is gonna start again... jk... ever experienced much more stress than now... but, i'm gonna leave everything to God... yeah!
His princess... out
@ |2:08 PM|
aft e movie, we went to BK for our so-called lunch, den went to take neo-print, & of course went to walk ard... jayne left for work at 5.30pm, peixiong went for his lesson at 6.10pm... e remaining of us headed to HMV... waited for jeanette & sally... while waiting, e few of us talked abt relationship stuff... quite noisy though... ha... it's like they know a lot abt my stuff la... but it's okay, afterall, we're in e same section... however, i dun wish for e whole section to know abt it... but, i trust them enough not to spread it ard...
aft tt, we headed to cineleisure for dinner at 7 plus... spent much time fellowshipping wif each other... stayed till 9 plus, den we went to centrepoint mac's... waited for peixiong to finish his lesson then we took e same train home... certain things tt shouldn't b said, actually popped out... & yes, it concerns peixiong & me... he was like super quiet throughout e journey... i dun mind them saying it in front of me, but it's peixiong tt i'm worried abt... fr wad i noe, he doesn't want matters to spread ard... i reached home at 11.05pm, watched tv, den went to sleep...
this morning, received a msg from angie... she told me tt peixiong is actually worried abt me... i asked her wad makes her think so & how did she noe abt it... she told me tt she called him last night & asked him if he was unhappy wif wad they said on e mrt... from wad he said, she says that he's quite worried for me, very protective of me & actually cares for me... ha... anyway, e whole issue is considered settled le ba... e only thing i can do now is to encourage him to speak up more & get to noe him better... hopefully b4 he goes into NS... yepz...
His princess... out
@ |7:37 AM|
next morning, had to report at 7.30am... did our duty all e way till 1 plus... waited for peixiong as he was also going back to church to help out... called him 2 times, he didn't pick up e call... msged him 2 times, he didn't reply... so, thot of telling him tt i'll meet him at e bus-stop... guess what? when i walked out, nearing e overhead bridge, saw him there... but in e end, we followed e other ic's back to church... helped out till 5 plus, den we headed seperate ways...
as for today, i went to orchard wif my parents at 2 plus pm... had a good time of lunch & shopping... ha... aft tt, we took a bus back... reached home at 7pm... took my dinner, watched tv, & used e phone... now posting this entry...
overall, feel really tired aft everything... but still, it's a great joy serving e Lord over e weekend! gotta rest early... tmr going out wif some other ushers to town again... gotta b a time of fellowshipping again! yeah!
His princess... out
@ |4:17 PM|
on thurs, called her in e afternoon at abt 2 plus & she said she was abt to set off... i arranged to meet her at 6.15pm at boon lay, & e time she was setting off was a little too early... she told me she was meeting peixiong cos he wanted to pass her sth... she asked me if i wanted to go, & actually i didn't really feel like going, aft wad happened b4... she pressed on & asked me to accompany her, then go for powerhouse straight... i finally agreed... packed my stuff, got changed, then set off... reached tiong bahru at 3pm... met jayne at e ctrl station, & headed to BK... e 3 of us stayed till 4 plus, den went to walk ard...
jayne & i left at 6.10pm, whereas peixiong went back to BK to study... on e mrt, mum called me... was sort of displeased wif certain things she said... but nvm... jayne & i went for powerhouse, & aft tt went for dinner... talked abt much stuffs... shall leave out e details... took 242 back to boon lay... reached home at 9 plus... rest for a while, den conference call wif jayne & peixiong till 2 plus am... again, i shall leave out e details... actually i was supposed to meet liying at jp at 4.40pm, but in e end, i didn't turn up... yah, felt bad la... intended to contact her, but her hp was confiscated, so how u expect me to arrange?
on fri, woke up late... dilly-dally here & there till 2 plus, aft tt got ready for work... 1st day at work bah... overall was ok, but quite busy during e peak hr... hurt myself while going down e ladder... yup... but now alright le... didn't haf dinner at all, so aft work, went to pack my dinner... reached home at 11 plus, took my so-called dinner, talked to my mum for a while, den went to sleep...
as for sat, nothing much really happened... peixiong missed call me 4 times, & msged me once, but i was still sleeping... so called him once i woke up... aft tt, went to take my breakfast... my mum & i sort of broke out in an argument again... abt some stupid issues which i don't even feel like talking abt... msged peixiong & told him abt e argument & he asked me to call him... talked till 11am, den went to get ready for cg... aft cg, went off wif some of my members... at night, went wif my parents to lavender for dinner... msged him if he was going for breakfast e next morning & he told me he wasn't... went to sleep shortly aft i got home...
this morning, woke up at 5.30am... noticed i didn't really sleep well last night... went to wash up, rest a while b4 i took a shower... peixiong called me at 6.30am to check if i was awake... left home shortly aft tt... reached interchange at 6.50am & e bus came like so early... so i went to e coffeeshop 1st... peixiong & bro david gave me a shock, cos didn't really expect to see them there... aft breakfast, went over to church... prepared e stuffs for svc, today ushered mah... today's svc was great! pastor kong talked abt worship part 2... aft svc, went opp to look for my members, aft tt went to cafe... stayed a while... aft tt, went over to dorcas's house wif diana... saw janson along e way... yupz... tt's all basically bah...
overall, i feel things have improved between peixiong & i... in e sense tt we're talking like we used to... yupz... today feel quite sleepy & tired... but it felt good being able to serve God!
His princess... out
@ |4:37 PM|
Found in Your grace
Totally surrendered to Your embrace
And there's nothing more than You
See Your perfection
I'm lost in Your peace
Your faithfulness sings over me
And Your love is the light of my soul
And I lift my eyes to You
Creator of the world
And I stand in awe of You
Of Your glo-ry
And I live to worship You
Son of God, King of Heaven
And the angels 'round Your throne
Cry out Ho-ly
To the One who is to come
Hear us sing Halle-lu-jah
Hal-le-lu-jah
Hal-le-lu-jah
Hal-le-lu-jah
His princess... out
@ |3:28 PM|
aft tt, we went up to e library where my aunt borrowed 3 books... den we walked over to wisma... saw a pair of sandals from prettyfit tt i really liked... cost abt $19.90... i've decided to buy it ltr this wk or next wk... went to charles & keith and looked ard again... tried on e diff pairs of sandals, however, i've set my mind on tt pair of sandals from prettyfit... some more, i've been wanting to buy tt pair for quite some time le, since a few mths back... & it's not easy to change my mind once i've decided on sth... yeah!
took a cab back to clementi den took e train to boon lay... went to jp... my aunt went to get a spray & i went to get a pure chocolate from coffee bean... den i walked home... rest a while, watch some tv, ironed some clothes... went to my room to check my hp; & ta-da! there was a missed call... from who? from peixiong... talked a while(wad we talked abt, i shall not type it here... come ask me la... ha...) den took my dinner & watched e tv at e same time... at 8 plus, sis hope called me, & i chatted wif her for a while too... aft tt mopped e floor, den took a break le...
tt's all le bah... feel kinda tired too... wasn't feeling well yesterday... had a bad headache... some more plus sore throat... anyway, felt much better today le...
His princess... out
@ |3:22 PM|
All I have
I give to You
You're my God
And my Saviour
You make all things new
My life is on the altar
I give my heart to You
In You I've found my purpose
My reason for living is You
You are my source
And my salvation
Nothing compares to You
All of my days
I long to know You more
Holy Spirit pour down like water
I'm hungry for Your touch
Each breath I take
I give my all to You
Your words are life eternal
To whom do I go besides You
My dreams and my desires
I lay them at Your feet
My life is on the altar
I give my heart to You
In You I've found my purpose
My reason for living is You
You are my source
And my salvation
Nothing compares to You
All of my days
I long to know You more
Holy Spirit pour down like water
I'm hungry for Your touch
Each breath I take
I give my all to You
Jesus I give You all
All that I am is Yours
His princess... out
@ |7:56 AM|
All I desire is You
O Lord, my God
All I desire is You
More precious than silver
More costly than gold
Nothing in this world
Compares with You
And what can this world offer
When all I desire is You
His princess... out
@ |7:34 AM|
received an email from bro david, one of e team ic's in my section; email was so meaningful, it was abt e diff articles spoken by pastor ulf ekman & other renowned pastors...
don't haf any plans for today... but not sure if i'll b going to orchard ltr cos there's a watch fair there... anywayz, shall end here...
His princess... out
@ |7:22 AM|
You who have won my heart
Taken me into Your arms
Comforted me like a friend
Your love
Surrounded me from the start
I never want to be apart
From You ever again
His princess... out
@ |7:07 AM|
Every day every night
Tell of Your goodness and mercy
Tell the world how You rescued me
Picked me up from sin and shame
Your breath gives me new life
Where can I go from Your presence
Under Your wings I take refuge
Your Spirit lives within my heart
I know we'll never be apart
Every day I draw closer to You Lord
I long to see Your face
And hide in Your embrace
All my life
Dwelling in Your holy place
My heart O Lord You've changed
I'll never be the same
His princess... out
@ |1:46 PM|
today's svc was great! pastor kong shared abt true worship & God's calling for us... e presence of God was so strong during e svc... at e last point of e svc, we had altar call & had some worship songs... everyone jz wept when we knelt before God...
aft svc, i went over to e coffeeshop wif my other members... left at 12.25pm & went back to church for BS(christian lifestyle)... aft BS, talked to sean for a while, then samuel & i went down to level 1... saw leonard, raymond, libing & mei juan & waited wif them for raymond's fren... they actually planned to go for svc 6 but in e end, raymond's fren didn't turn up... while waiting, i saw peixiong at level 1(outside attributes)... finally, i left wif church wif e rest of them at 2 plus & took e church bus back to JP... when e bus drove off, saw peixiong again... he was accompanying his fren to e bus-stop...
at JP, accompanied them to look for a temp job, but in e end, they didn't manage to find one tt suits them... so we left at 3 plus... they took transport home, whereas i walked home... tt's all le bah...
His princess... out
@ |1:33 PM|
so stayed at alex's house wif some of e other members till 7.05pm... den left wif yang wei, liying & leonard... liying & leonard went home while yang wei & i took a cab to church for support duty... wad to do? supposed to report at 7.30pm but we were already running late, so took a cab down lor... thank God, we managed to reach church at 7.25pm...
started our support duty... did e usual fitting of e bulletins... was at e same table wif my section ushers... of course saw peixiong too, but halfway through, he disappeared, guess he was on logis duty... managed to finish more than 3K bulletins by 8.45pm yesterday, which was considered fast... went to cafe wif diana, jessica, yang wei, samuel & adrian... then went to B4 at 9.15pm to help lay e bulletins for sunday svc 4... left church at 10.30pm & took 242 to BL interchange wif jessica & serene... waited a while for samuel... aft tt, serene went home while jessica, samuel & i went to mac's for supper... reached home at 11.40pm, went to bathe, wash-up, then headed to bed...
yepz... tt's all tt happened yesterday lor... quite a busy day & i was physically & mentally drained...
His princess... out
@ |1:18 PM|
y is it so? y is my memory failing? is there sth wrong wif me? or is it i'm thinking too much?
for e past few days, many questions were weighing in my mind... even now, e questions r still left unanswered... i'm not sure wad i'm thinking of exactly, but i feel a weight pressing down in my mind... i'm not even sure who i can turn to for an ans--->i'm talking abt a close fren, a fren i always hang out wif; but obviously, i'll still turn to God for e ans..
guess ppl must b surprised, regarding e area tt i'm unsure of who i can turn to for an ans... many ask me, "i thot u haf so many frens who're able to help u? wad r u worried abt?" hmmm... it's true tt i haf many frens ard me who cares for me, like my cg members & my close frens... but i feel tt things r not e same as it used to b... circumstances haf changed...
i dunno y things turn out like this... but guess i'm not as positive as i used to b... though i always encourage all my frens to look on e positive side, but i don't seem to b able to solve my own probs... no matter how crazy or lame i seem, deep down i feel kinda empty... i feel VERY tired... VERY...
e reason i don't really tell everyone my probs, b it e past present or future, is tt i don't want others to worry for me... & i believe i'm able to solve my own probs... furthermore, over wad happened some time ago, i'm unsure whether i can ever confide in them...
i somehow haf many many things to type down here, but it's gonna b a very long entry... i also dun wanna type it out... very tired of thinking too much... anyway, things r not e same as it used to b... circumstances haf changed...
His princess... out
@ |12:50 PM|