kkz, back to e topic... called him and asked him where was he, and he told me was reaching soon & told me to head to B4 1st... e prob was no one was ard, but anyway i jz headed down to B4 and sat on e steps outside e logis room(also known as e usher store)... he called me back at 11.35am or so, & asked me to go up to level 1 support area(a place where ushers usually gather to do e service bulletins)... went up, & there i saw e other ushers... and of course, saw him... had to take down our name, time we report, our team & contact no on e paper given... den were given e allocations... 10 ppl were called to help out in ensuring tt all e children had their tags/stickers(meaning they signed up at e respective booths), e rest of us proceeded to e lobby whereby we were allocated by another children's church worker... 3 ppl did lift ushering, another 6 were assigned to help out in e 'flow' of e crowd, 2 were e so-called toilet guards(helping to check if children were playing wif e taps), & e remaining 6 went down to B4 to help out for e service...
i helped out in many areas like directing e 'flow' & lift ushering(meaning assist e crowd to press e lift if they were going up/down...) some more there was e JAMS church service going on at e same time, & we were also told to help direct and clear e crowd aft e JAMS service ended, so as to prevent them to wander ard e lobby... at e same time direct e parents & their children to e other side of e lobby so as to prevent clashing... was kinda busy cos short-handed & each of us had to help out in many areas, however, it felt really great serving God! felt so much more refreshed & tt God could use us in so many areas no matter how young we are! much as i find pleasure to serve e Lord as well as e ppl, i had to leave early... i left at 1.30pm cos i had to rush down to marsiling for cgm... no doubt tiring, but i still went wif a heart of expectancy to receive sth from God...
reached marsiling at 2.30pm... was combined cgm, alot of ppl were present... waited for a while for my other members who haven't arrived... when most of us reached, we left e mrt station & headed for alex's house for cgm... started wif e usual stuffs---> games, testimonies, praise & worship, den my cgl started preaching... today's msg was: walking wif God(dun wanna go into content, if not this will really b a super long blog... interested ppl can msg me... hehe...) could sense e presence of e Holy Spirit in tt place... den aft cgm, came e offering & thereafter, e announcements...
my cgl, sis veron, shared wif us 2 announcements which everyone didn't expect & we were like shocked... one of them was e birth of a new cg!!!!--->W299(which means 4 cellgroups multiplied to 5 cellgroups now) & e other announcement was e reshuffling of members... e sad thing is tt my cg W238 was affected, in e sense some members are transferred out whereas some still remained... & i'm one of e ppl who're transferred out, now i'm in N162... sad? hmmm, there's bound to b lo, cos i've been in W238 all along & now i'm transferred out... but nvm, i trust tt God has a greater plan for me in N162, and i lift everything up to him!! now i'm not affected by e change le, cos i noe no matter which cg i may b in, i'll still b able to grow in God's glory! at e same time, will also get a chance to noe my other members better...
aft everything, left early wif 4 other members: sarah, mei juan, liying & huixian... but at e traffic lights, robert managed to catch up wif us... could see tt he was in a rush(had to work)... guess ill see his real tired look tmr cos he ever told me tt he usually reach home at 2am on sat nights aft work & he'll haf like 2 hrs of sleep only... understand his plight cos i've ever been thru' it as well... y? cos i ever had 0 hrs of sleep... pathetic? yeah...
took e mrt... during e journey, my mum called me & asked me where i am... told her where i was, she started nagging at me & asked me all e usual stuffs... told her everything... felt a little irritated and frustrated... & seriously... i'm really VERY tired of such incidents... it's not e 1st time it happened... mayb i was at fault, but i'm trying my very best to change... anyway, when i reached home, it was already 6 plus... went to take a shower, den checked my hp for any msgs or missed calls... true enough, got 3 missed calls, all from e same person: he... i returned his call & he told me tt he thot i was supposed to help out for communion, told him tt i'm not helping out as i've told our team ic tt i couldn't make it... & he was like quite... i dunno wad's e word... but definitely isn't a good word... ha... and he told me to inform him next time cos our ic was down wif fever... e shocking thing's tt i wasn't even informed tt our ic had a fever & i told him... he went like: "u dunno meh?" so he asked me y i'm unable to help out, i told him tt my mum find it quite funny to serve 2 times, some more when my tests & exams r ard e corner... den when i was talking halfway, his tone was like cutting me off... i felt a little irritated... i mean, i'm giving u e reason but now u're cutting me off... cant b bothered le... haiz... u wanna listen den go ahead, if u dun want den leave it... no matter how busy u may b, u shouldn't b speaking like this... kkz, i noe i sound a little put off, & i dun wanna feel this way nor do i wanna b angry wif u, but it's not e 1st time this's happening... mayb u didn't realise it, but sometimes ur mood is a little, u noe... dunno if i've told u, but it's e fact... dun ask me y i'm speaking like this, cos i may or may not say it out no matter how much u wanna noe... it's not difficult to noe, jz think & figure it out slowly...
i feel it's always me sacrificing more but i dun get anything in return, & hey, i'm not complaining abt this, but i hope tt u can try to b more understanding... i dun ask for anything in return nor do i expect sth in return... wonder if u rmbr tt i ever told u i'll wait for u till u come out of NS? mayb u may haf forgotten, but i'll nv forget e promise i made to u... dunno y i feel this way... mayb it's e fact tt u're e person i loved e longest, dunno when this will fade away, but i hope this feeling will stay forever... there're many things tt i wanna tell u, but u're pre-occupied wif many other stuffs, so words r usually left unspoken... thinking abt it, i'm not sure where to start... it's jz all e mixed feelings... but jz wanna let u noe tt i really treasure e times where we ate breakfast, lunch & dinner; e time spent talking on e phone; e times whereby we went out...
anyway, dunno y i write so much abt him... haven't even told him my blog add, but somehow, one day he'll noe... ha... didnt noe i wrote so much... k la, shall end here ba... gotta wake up at 5 plus tmr---> need to reach church by 7.30am to help out in communion for e svc, & will also b meeting him for breakfast tmr... still need to look thru my PSP & my other modules b4 i go to bed ltr... so anyway, nitez ppl...
His princess... out
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