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Saturday, March 12, 2005

kaikai left this world this morning at 5.05am... received a msg from michael who informed me about this... seriously speaking, i felt really really upset... imagine losing a great & close fren... for those of you who are wondering who kaikai is, he's my secondary school classmate whom i knew for 5 years--->sec 1 to sec 5... his actual name is Blenheim Tan Rikai... we talked about quite alot of stuffs, & he was there for me whenever i needed a listening ear... all of my classmates are equally upset about his death, but e ones who felt e worse are lionel, michael, neo & qingshun... they are e ones who always hung out with blenheim aka kaikai... they were e ones who showed me e existence of real friendship; always doing things together, always going to e same place together, always hung out at e same places... even if anyone was upset, e rest of e gang would suggest renting out a room & have an all guys night... see how close their friendship was? i mean, i seldom see such a great & strong friendship... or rather, i've never seen such a group of frens like them, who share e same dreams, visions & interests...

after my psp walkthrough, i rushed down to kai's void-deck(that's at bukit batok st 52), & paid my respects to him... some of my other secondary school classmates were around... when qingshun brought me to kai's coffin, tears just flowed non-stop... e one whom i saw lying in e coffin wasn't e kaikai that i once knew... he looked so much different, it's like 2 worlds apart... kaikai looked so pale & bloated... it just pains all of us who saw him in that state... e past 15 days in hospital was very painful for kai... no matter how painful it was for him, he couldn't voice it out cos he was in a coma... but at least he left this world peacefully with a smile... e most amazing thing is, thank God he's saved! i saw kai's parents & his two sisters... his mum was still feeling really upset, which is expected... but his dad was strong enough to take it... haiz... hopefully, time can heal all wounds ya?

through this whole accident, miracles happened... God almost brought kai back to life! praise God! however, e last minute, something bad happened... but nevertheless, still wanna thank God! through this, non-christians came to know God & are willing to go to church; even michael said he wanna re-dedicate his life back to God! amen!!!

i've learnt so much through this accident... kaikai left unexpectedly; & this is something which no one would have imagined or believed in... it's really very sudden... now i finally know what it means to cherish your loved ones before they're gone... life is so short... we never know what may happen in future... for those who always say that they don't want to live anymore, think again... if time can rewind, i'm sure kaikai would want to live a longer life than now... to be honest, i regret not getting to know kaikai better & i regret not going to e hospital to visit him... but i must pull myself up & not feel overly-upset... kaikai doesn't want to see me cry... cos if i continue to cry, i'm assuming he's dead... but e actual fact is, he's in a better place than earth, a place called paradise...

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His princess... out
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