after duty, cleared e zone then went to do recycling... after recycling, had a talk wif kim... kinda emotional talk la... she asked me about my calling, where i'm heading in cg... to b honest, tis is my most dreaded question... 2 years ago, God's calling for me was in usher... last year, God's calling for me was in cg... & tis year, i'm in between...
honestly speaking, i'm so tired of everything... tired of always braving... tired of always putting on a front, a face tat isn't myself... i wept cos i'm so tired of putting on a mask... in cg, i can b myself... but not in usher... i dunno y & i dun even noticed... it was only until kim told me about it... she wasn't fierce... she was firm... she left me wif many things to ponder about... it's not my timing, but it's God's timing... it's when i learn to love ppl more, surrender my all to God... it's all about telling God, "take all of me, i gif You my all for all of You"... tat instantly, before i even noe it, opportunities wil b here... & i noe i'll b able to rise up!
so for those of ya out there who wanna rise up but always wonder y e opportunity isn't given to ya... leave it to God yeah... stil gotta pray for God's calling... is it cg or usher? keep me in prayer guys... thks! :)
after e talk, went over to changi airport to fellowship wif my members... & after tat, it was home sweet home... as for those of ya who wanna noe e complete details about wat kim talked to me about, ya... just come & ask me... i'll b glad to answer ur queries... haaaa... but i doubt there'll b many who ask me la... anyway... shared wif elly about tis & i must say... she's a great sister! always lending a listening ear... talked to enling & a lil' to joanne too... somehow feel tat she isn't giving me her full attention so i didn't bother to tell her much... anyway... tis isn't important... wats important is i haf to pray...
tis race isn't easy to run... wats certain is God is always there, running e race tog wif me... & one thing's for sure, i've got great frens whom i noe i can count on to run e race tog wif me... :)
one of my goals for 2007 is to b a leader, being able to mould ppl's characters... & yupp... sth to leave ya guys wif... do ya wanna b a leader or a follower?
His princess... out
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